Symbala
So my dear ones, my name is Symbala. I used to say that I drove a tourist bus for the ascended masters who have gathered around this planet to watch the amazing process that is going on here. It is a good joke, don't you think? And it gets the point across that there are many many beings who have gathered here to root for you and to urge you on in this amazing experiment of group enlightenment.
I know that it does not look like that is what is going on at this point. Your image of enlightenment is one where things should be getting holier and sweeter and nicer all the time and clearly that is not what is going on in this moment for most on the planet.
In my experience, the process of enlightenment is neither tidy, holy nor particularly sweet. It comes about usually through internal struggle, intense self judgment and a lack of realization that everything is just fine the way it is. The intensification of a sense of separation between you and all other beings on the planet is a pretty normal thing during this process.
In my own enlightenment I went to war to fight the 'others' who did not believe the same way as I did. It was a holy war. It was a righteous war. It was what I thought was the right thing to do. And on the night of the biggest battle of them all I looked out across all of those people struggling to be right, to make their point, to be triumphant and I saw myself. In each and every one of them I saw myself. I saw that the solution was not one of separating further and killing further but of union. And I put down my weapons and allowed my people to believe that I had died in battle. And I let go of all separation and became one with All that Is.
You might say I folded up my tent and stole into the great night of the Isness. I did not need to stay and try to teach this new philosophy. I knew that was not possible or desirable in that place where I lived.
Enlightenment comes when those key beliefs that you have fall away and you see that everything is perfect just now; and everything is whole just now; and nothing needs to change just now. Nothing to do. Nothing to change. Nothing to be. One cannot teach that. And I had no desire to have people following me around thinking I was holy. I'd seen enough of that to know that was not a lot of fun. I'd come from a family of holy people. That is why I had become a warrior, to be not like them! So I just joined the All instead of creating the basis for yet another group and another separation and another set of beliefs.
So why did I bother to do this thing called channeling? I was attracted to what is happening on this little planet called earth. This was not my home planet. But I heard--you might say felt a movement in creation--about an interesting experiment that had never been tried before. Your experiment--to see if a whole planet could ascend all at once--rocks, trees, plants, animals, entities and the very planet itself. A planet not based in evolution of the soul but in quantum leaps and ascension where there was a chance to just go Pop! and have it be done. So I came to watch. And I found it fascinating. And I drove my tour bus for a while and met our friend Aranya who has hung out here a long long time in your counting. And he showed me that there was still an opening within Sara and I joined.
That's a story for you. It is based in time. It is based in a story of reality. None of it is True. If I had one bit of advise for you it would be this: please do not believe anything we say. Take what rings your chimes, that resonates with you and leave the rest. It's all here just to try to convey something that it is truly impossible to convey. The sweetness of oneness. The joy of creation. The peace of knowing there is nothing ever that needs to be done or changed or corrected. The lush beauty of resting in the mind of God where all thought arises and falls and thus all creation comes into being and ends. All in a moment.
I love the fluidity, that movement that is the mind of God moving, creating, destroying. All in a moment. A great dance of life, death, creation, movement and ending all at once. The Big Bang in forward and reverse all at once and everything in between too. So sweet, so lovely.
Come dance with me in the stars. Put down your need to be someone. Put down your desire to know what is so. Put down your sword of judgment. Put down your hurts and regrets. Put down the thought you ever were and come dance with me. Be the One and we can make love in the moment in union that you cannot imagine.
Enlightenment is not tidy, holy or otherwise pretty. It comes when it comes. Live your life. Live it with gusto. Live it with élan. LIVE! Hold nothing back, throw yourself into the fire of life with no caution. Let it burn your to a lovely crisp and all your beliefs with it. And see what you find!
So be it.